Week 16

Well if you were lucky enough to read my pity-party of a post earlier this week (and I know a few of you were) I apologize. I was feeling very sorry for myself, I've had an emotional week and a serious lack of self control. As far as the whole week I was "good". Lots of fruits and veggies, lean meats, portion control, healthy oils exercise almost every day.

But then the sun would set and Crazy Emotional Binge Eater Kay would emerge from the depths of her room (even after being comfortably in her pjs for quite come time) and raid the kitchen. Sometimes it'd be the chocolate ice cream with some peanut butter melted on top and some times it'd be healthy snacks... in extremely large quantities. Conscious of what I was doing, and realizing I didn't want to "give up" I would justify this binge as something I deserved. It was owed to me. "Because I had a bad freaking day and I deserve some freaking cookies, THAT'S WHY". In actuality I need to learn how to control those emotional eating benders. 

I definitive do deserve to treat myself for my hard work  throughout the week with something. I definitely do not deserve to eat my parents out of house and home in the middle of the night like some kind of sugar bandit just because boyfriend and I are having difficulties. I was thinking about posting on KTJ's facebook board asking for some motivation, some distraction techniques or some inspiration  but in a whoa is me moment I decided to not "bother" others with my problems  But I'm realizing that's what we're here for isn't it? To help and inspire and motivate each other on our journeys? 

Ah well. I'm hoping next week will be successful. As far as this week, it was successful (relatively) on the weight loss front. I contribute that to my feelings of regret every morning which led to me working out religiously every day. I lost 0.2. It wasn't deserved. But it's definitely appreciated. Here's to making better decisions. Hope everyone had a fantastic week!. 

Starting Weight: 200.8

Current Weight: 178.6

Total Lost: 22.2

St. Patty's Day goal: 4.2/6

Week 15

Right now I just want to run around singing and dancing. I actually may just do that (can you say activity points?!) This week I didn't focus on scheduling a workout time. Instead I did jumping jacks, crunches, jump robe, jumping squats (man I jumped a lot), and my kettle bell every time there was a commercial on TV, when I had my sweet potatoes in the oven, while I was waiting for my laundry to finish, etc. I also took some time while I was at work to run the eight flights of stairs while on dinner and my break. AND I brought the chocolate covered cherries I received for V-day into work so they weren't staring me in the face the whole week (if they would have even lasted that long). And with all the sugar-depleted nurses running around they were gone within two hours.  So what did all result in?...

A loss of 3.8!! That's almost double what I'd hoped. I'm so excited. And that also means on officially in the 170's!

On another happy note to the left are the scrubs I bought when I first started at the hospital. Size XL. They are literally falling off me. To the right is me holding them taught. I think its time to invest in another pair. That would so far be the only downfall of my weight loss. I need practically whole new set of scrubs and a nurse's aide/ student with a three year old doesn't allow for a wardrobe redo. Maybe I'll have to learn to sew?

So for this weekend the boyfriend and I are celebrating Valentine's Day by drinking some wine tonight then brunch and a matinee movie tomorrow  We're going to Ihop and I've been spending days planning out my healthy but delicious breakfast. 

I hope everyone had a great week! Let me know how you're doing below!

Starting Weight: 200.8

Current Weight: 178.8

Total Lost: 22

St. Patty's Day goal: 4/6

Week 14

Weigh in was yesterday. Not too much of a change. I expected a bit more of a loss this week but I'm a little bloated. My mom has only lost 2.2 lbs in the 14 weeks so she is thinking she may not do it anymore (Weight Watchers is quite costly), which doesn't really bother me, other than the fact that I wish she were happier with the way she looked. I wish I looked like my mother. I don't think I've weighed what she does since like 8th grade. She weighs now, what I hope to weigh at the end of my journey. 

This week I'm only down 0.2. I'm really hoping next week I'll be down at least 2 lbs. I know it's a high goal to shoot for, but I'd really like to get some of that 2.4 lbs off that I gained last week.

Plus my mom surprised me and bought the items in my Old Navy cart online. I had them sitting there for weeks because the pants were a size lower than what I'd normally wear, as well as all the shirts. Though I don't have a problem with the tops, when I tried the pants on last night they are still a little tight. They are also GREEN for St. Patty's day. I have a few more weeks to get the weight off. So I set myself a mini-goal. We do this a lot at my meetings. For example my goal for Valentine's day was 7 lbs (which I am no where near). But I understand it's good to have something to aim for. So for St. Patrick's day I'm thinking 6 lbs is totally doable and will make those pants a little more comfortable. I'm going to concentrate on cardio, lower abs and thighs so that I don't look so squished in those green jeans. I'm not so sure it's a super slimming color, best not to be busting at the seams. 

Do you guys set mini-goals for yourselves to avoid looking at a sometimes daunting number?

Hope everyone did fantastic! 

Starting Weight: 200.8

Current Weight: 182.6

Total Lost: 18.2

St. Patty's Day goal: 0.2/6

Non-Scale Victories

I had a rough start to the week (started it off with a significant gain). But I eventually recovered. I was actually so excited for this link-up when I left work last night. I couldn't wait to share. Which gets me so excited to read everyone else's accomplishments for the week!

I worked out before work yesterday. No big deal, a little light jogging/ mostly walking because I suck at pushing myself, and some squats. 

Worked as normal. 

But then some of the girls asked me to go to the gym with them after work.. at 11 pm, after working all evening. Bah. But I did it. Figured I'd stay 45 minutes then leave. Best idea ever. 

I ran my first 15 minute mile in, well, probably forever. I couldn't do it in high school. I really haven't tried all the much since. 

I get that this isn't "good" from a runner's perspective. But usually when I work out at home it takes me 20-25 minutes to do a mile, because I spend about 1 minute running, then switch to walking. Then maybe 15 minutes in I'll give running another shot, for thirty seconds. 

I don't know if it was being awake from working or the fact that I was with other people and I wanted to push my self.. but I ran.

And I couldn't be happier. 

How was your week?! 

Head on over to KTJ Weighing In and Life By Lex and join the link-up. 
Can't wait to read everyone's victories!

Week 13 + picture overload

big dessert (that's my sissy)

I expected a gain this week. It is a hell of a gain. It was my birthday, I felt entitled to a few drinks, I went out to dinner, at 8 at night right before my weigh in. And I had dessert. I don't regret one bite (or sip). Before I get into numbers I wanted to share that I had a really great week otherwise.

baby dessert

 I had a few people whom I haven't seen in a while tell me how good I looked. One even said I looked like I was melting out of my scrubs. I've had to retire a few pairs of scrubs too. They are mainly the ones from when I first started working at the hospital postpartum,  maybe 230 lbs? I was afraid of the scale. The cool thing about scrubs is that they are like pjs, but these ones were huge. Like unprofessional, boarder line rap star baggy. They were officially donated. ADIOS.

Rue 21 outfit

Also my sister works at this pretty hip clothing store that caters to thinner people. I own one one dress from there, but it had to be sleeveless as they aren't very generous in the lunch-lady arm department. But over the weekend (since it was my birthday and all) I gave it another shot. I bought a whole outfit (minus the jeans, those are mine. Don't push it.) I felt great. Everything fit, nothing was like skin tight or felt like it was going to burst at the seems at one false move. It also didn't hurt that I got 50% off. 

So all and all I had a great week. I was doing really well as far as food, decent with the exercise. Some meals throughout the week included:

ham eggbeater omelet, turkey back, sweet potato

veggie burger w/ RF cheese and green beans

more eggbeaters and ham, apple with cinnamon & stevia

brown rice stir fry with zucchini and cauliflower, sweet potatoes

 BUT as I said. My weigh in sucked, but I actually back down, not all the way down, but down enough. I think a lot of the weight had to do with eating SO late and SO heavy and drinking SO MUCH right before my weigh in. But I'm actually really glad I went. I ate that way, I went and faced the music. It's over with. 

2.4, I gained 2.4. This was expected and my home scale says as of Monday that I'm actually 181.3 so I know a lot of the gain had to do with all that food sitting RIGHT THERE. Waiting for my scale failure. Oh well. Next week will definitely be better. 

Starting Weight: 200.8

Current Weight: 182.8

Total Lost: 18.0